Reflection and Regression
It’s amazing reflecting back on the past year and every event that marks 1 year ago is a reminder of how I had no idea what was coming. Looking back now, the only time it’s good to reflect back is to see how far you have come. All the events leading up to her overdose were all the things I thought I was doing right, I was trying to course correct, to control the outcome to get out ahead of the next catastrophe and yet all of that energy and force did nothing. I just refused to accept that there was not something I could do to change the situation we were in. I realize now I was powerless against mental illness. Her overdose was an awakening, it was like life stopped and said this is the end OR a new beginning. But not knowing what that new beginning was or where we were going felt like I was blindfolded trying to navigate. There is so much clarity now looking back 10 months ago that in the moment felt overwhelming with confusion and pain and grief. I am so beyond grateful we found ...
